from Erye yard out, a small road by the beam, like a man sitting in silence road kiln. I remember last time when this place phone signal. Open the phone, and sure enough there are several messages. New Year SMS
basically.
Gong contingent: br> Li sister: This child, too juvenile, only Cai Kecheng mind all day, little ceremonies are not human. Shaohua Hung Ling and I have not seen a txt interlock, it is estimated that the annual is engaged ... ...
blue aunt back to the first phone, first a few polite, I said she was very happy, you said a few days back. She really keen on the idea.
hung up the phone could not help but secretly weep, and when even the blue aunt this stuff I must deal with and control them up?
evaluate few calls, and 11 others had to return to the information, told them recently back.
Finally I called to Pearl, it was still in bed listening to her voice. Just listen to her and said drowsily, playing a New Year's Eve all night last night, very weary. Looks like there is next to a man's voice, probably Wang Zhidong. I do not say a lot, and told her the last save point for me to hang up the phone calls.
the way home, passing Erye empty house, and my heart there is always a unknown fear. I do not know when Old Men, what would a scenario, just yesterday, this time there is a living for the elderly, sat in the corner, although senile, but still meat and blood.
overnight, a person, so no more ... ...
because Erye relationship has been very nice mood. I forever prodigy, is not so I am antique, not while the money will be as helpless? Rural people heart there is no certify that the fear has scatter in their hearts, always have a sense of crisis.
flowers and Erniu until New Year to my family, and I chatted for a few, slowly feeling better.
flowers asked me:
When asked about my flowers, I said without hesitation: : I continue criminal of trouble. As early as one day to go back and make more money, my grandfather, father, mother will be able to one day live in a new house.
I asked Erniu:
I naturally can not wait that long, and asked Erniu: heart of a peppery, when every time I encountered suffering need help, this slightly coarse woman always the first one to stand out, leftover no exertion to help me.
I said: back to sell! Shashi Hou you go do?
them before leaving, I put my lipstick to give a flower, would have wanted to give Erniu hand cream, but the Erniu say that things useless.
night I put the thing three days prepared to go tell Mom and Dad.
mother a red eye socket immediately, one took my hand and said: ? If I was a little money on the card, if I do not have the body shine clothes, in fact, I open the dike and village head in the sun of women is no another.
I have to go, must go that far downtown, the search for me and my family morrow.
father listened this, silent, but pit smoking a pipe.
Big Year, cumbersome snow.
woke up this morning, is not too happy. To return to the elemental end of the educate during holiday time, I was always very hard to approve. Tukang feeling, watching the wall of cracks and crumbling dome, although the family is very old, but did not give me warm lacking.
pondered, tears down.
suppressing lull the emotions, is preparing to wake, my mother has been entered.
She is holding a bloom jacket, said: > I see that little red flower jacket, strange and lovely, can not help but say: smiling at me and said:
mother opened my quilt, the little jacket to wear on me, when she was out one line on the jacket of the spiral buckle, my tears, could not down.
I hugged her cervix, crying, crying while saying: will not be inexpensive because of privation, not because of the rich and magnificent.
night, my mother mantled dumplings.
I just mentioned from time to go, my father squatting pit smoking a pipe in the corner, not saying a word.
just achieved eating the dumplings, Erniu open three children came.
I asked her: Good tomorrow early I sent you, ah! just take a bag of bag of
father to smoking, my mother holding my heart in her hand, stroked over and over again.
before going to nap, Erniu gave the family called and said to his men: okay?
lying in bed, and Erniu each other warm, I said to her: Niu said: br> Days before dawn, we woke up. Leave home in the morning, especially cold. Fortunately, the next day the snow yesterday, finally stopped.
Before he left, I looked at Grandpa, he seldom {awake|awake}. I said: Grandpa is still senseless, he gazed at me for a moment then said: Grandpa waved good-bye toward all. When I waved goodbye to my grandfather, he had fallen asleep.
Erniu launched three children so I am good, I ride, and parents no alternative but to leave, I even did not look look at them one.
attachment such as the dawn smog,
Pumas, thick intractable ... ...
mommy hides the few sweet potatoes in my arms, said: miles, starving and Erniu dine sweet potatoes! br> I'm afraid of them a look, I will give up to the heartbreak. I suddenly fell into them, no longer compliant to leave.
mother ends up in my arms the sweet potato, but the hand is still linger there. She no fantasy language to express dismay, she just wanted to touch me again, even on a few seconds ... ...
father still said nought, just stood in front of pit smoking a pipe.
three children away.
mother's hand slowly pumping out from my arms, I saw her fingers tried to extend, eventually skirmished to touch me again!
my arms Chuaizhuo sweet potato, and the mother's warmth, slowly away and slowly leave my home.
I finally have the courage to look up, staring at the lopsided home.
a blinking red dot, it is my father's pipe on the flames. Flashing red dot ahead quickly, as if to hear the voice of my father run trot - solid riding in the snow Bigfoot step by step, the step by step towards the intention of my chase.
dad today saying a word, he just want to see more of me, even now I am going to leave at the moment ... ...
that ruddy dot is about to disappear, the dad of my watch!
Along the path, Erniu and I was silent, only the bumps of three children struggling in the snow in the front row. I touched the arms of sweet potato, as if to touch my mother again, rough hands.
car halfway, even coil up.
I Erniu struggling to stand up from the sleet, propped up three children. But the sweet potato is to find lacking arms, I appear to lose the mother's heartiness.
panic, helplessness, detachment, humiliation, all in all the explosion of the moment. I grabbed Erniu tears cried:
misery always give people extra power, and I Erniu alternately hurrahing at dawn inside, covered with muck, sometimes crying, occasionally smiling.
chaptering, when I put my scarf solution down, tied Erniu neck, said: Erniu easy and frank laugh, said: > I Erniu goodbye, her diagram away awkwardly driving three children, I thought silently: > when the practice had to go to school, always avoid the spring, but this was not spared. Into the station, I have been pushed at abortion. Get in the hands of Zhang expensive cattle practice, whatever the outcome is squeezed into the train, all the cars without anyone breach, this really is a taste of our original populous country. Now think about it, we actually have five Olympic mascots, in fact, there is a certain reason.
spent in pain excursion, when I walked out of the train station, when suddenly there is a relief.
rejoice of a few minutes, it worries.
get a taxi did not realize the money lost, but fortunately I stood close to bank cards. Pearl had to call her to take the money paying the cost for me downstairs.
taxi shuttle in the heart of misgiving, rather impatient to have me. Do no know why, one foot above the road here, I marathon opposition time there is a variety of urgency, the kind of penetration in the body of the crisis of form, color everyone can not rush impetuous.
Pearl give me a long lack, hug, and then laugh at me, said: the nerve to say: Then took a comfortably hot bath.
When I rub a damp towel to get the hair, the Pearl will be handed a bunch of child keys in my hands, said: I changed the locks. on balance it? where expensive belongings are in there, this house must have if you say what a precious thing ... , and Wang Zhidong they do not know this house ah I do not know a thing Lu Jun Oh. :
I heard, now said: I lay in mattress at night, and my heart wondering: unhappy, as if her home New Year's Eve the children died like one list. She did not speak up, I go out and handed her a hundred dollars, said: The old female laughed at once, such as mellow pomegranate, Ziya Liezui mouths smell all the children said: not slow.
Ah Xuan and Ling-Ling are warm hug.
see me back, Ah Xuan jump gave me a kiss, Ling-Ling touches fewer so incited, children still sat at the bedside.
I asked: Xuan said a bunch of fuss, I hesitated to encounter the eyes looked next to a girl.
for me Ah Xuan said:
I point the cloud, pumping a few mouthfuls, this red is not found.
I asked Ling-Ling,:
A Xuan said: I finally gave up, but my heart is still very uncomfortable, do not know why that stupid child to the hospital.
Ah Xuan and Ling-Ling have a moment to go out of station, leaving only current to the Xinxin that has not happened.
all right to talk with her a few words, I asked her: I had accurate the same, at intervals anxiously looked mundane, cramped waiting to be played like a puppet.
a.m., Showtime, and I command goodbye to home, I began to achieve that her only premier elements. I asked her:
me on the phone: child? Cai Kecheng, is Gong normal. Really not the same, take attention on. Finally, ask the hospital address
hastily hung up the phone on, however the outcome, a friend, then I go to see Gong.
purchase something at the hospital entrance fruit, Dial-a-red-bed number, results in a small lad told me that surgery 77.
door see, consolidate and then head bandaged and a half in bed, red is to consolidate and then fed it.
see me coming, consolidate and then a reluctant look on the red, said:
to the door, grabbed my red clothes, said: This is how, ah? you do not all get at it? he can listen to me? After all, the night the couple hundred days elegance ah. the. Caike Cheng Gong course is named as a given.
red went on to say: One day he squatted KTV door waiting for me, just to consolidate and then drove me back. Caike Cheng thought I was out ... ... out to make money. on the chart at me for money, consolidate and then not know him, thought it was bad, so the protection I, the results ... ... the outcome was Caike Cheng to buffet!
I said: Gong then I will help you talk about, who have not ex-boyfriend ah? However, mitigation, let him forgive Caike Cheng. so, I went to pay a ransom, Cai Kecheng will be capable to come out. However, good communication ah Gong. br> I thought, do not ######## muddled up, he went to eat shit will not be jealous. He called you out to make money when the thought of how jealous ah? But words can not say it, I think this head disease does not red light, and asked: I am, willing to give me money I had with him overnight and play, how? of. Accompany one of the red male Shuishui is simply not one publish.
red said: them that a non-sentimental, and then speak behind to the ward and consolidate a few I left the hospital.
nightfall, Huang again.
This guy's eyes can not wait to eat my hands on my body walk, full of saliva the tongue can not wait to thaw me. Think of my home house, and then think of his stamp, I put up the whole.
nectar at night-time, drunk almost the old stuff, and must drag me out. My life and death do not go, he pulled out a stack of money, about a twenty thousand visual, shoehorned into the middle of my leg, said: aunt is not savor the smell of money coming in, money out even now Huang a, Lan aunt came. She stood next to drum up support:
I put money into the hands of Huang said:
next day I was awakened by a red, almost to all of her sisters to borrow money.
when begging everyone,
Women Puma Baylee Future Cat, while repeating a set of television screenplay rhetoric: my bedside, said: and repeatedly query me assist her. At first I did not want to her, then it has again apologized her stand, took a five hundred to her.
red take the money, merry to bow again and again, cornered toward the others persist to beg. Red borrow money virtually cried out when anxious, crying voice to the slightly later. I do not understand after all, in the end what is the cause so red as Caike Cheng willing to do so.
night, Huang again.
it may be a night changed my life.
this is different from the elapse, the blue aunt exceptionally warm, and frequently drinks above. At first, I do not really drink, but Huang cup glasses to toast. But blue is very alert aunt tells me, I really fail to knock her, and she had to touch. Drink for a while, I slightly tipsy, Huang suddenly asked me: silent, but turned around and looked blue aunt. Blue aunt is a signle smile apologetically, and then hand patted Huang thighs, and I continue to touch the wine.
Later, I was drunk.
stumbled feeling aunt took me in to go blue, blue aunt while walking side me and said: memory.
so I woke up, I comprehend what happened.
my mind a vacant, a strange look around, first to feel is fear, fear of someone in a dark edge to spy on me,
Puma Jiyu V Wn's Shoes, even though the last time I've been sweeping up.
tears flowing down unconsciously, I was afraid to wail. Struggling to arrange up, messy clothing, threw a seat at the bedside, I would favor to have to get clothed and even death. That a few clothing, dressing a long, long period, I very upset, reprove myself why this tread. I had anticipated it should be today, but all also late. They feel very upset later the humiliation, biting the lower lips, kept tearful, I muse only one death to get out of this humiliation.
I could not help pulling their cilia, slap their own fans, but all too late.
opened the curtains, I really want to jump on it with eyes closed, to end it all. But I do not really step out of that step. I'm afraid, I have the courage to die, I am a coward, cowardly to even defiance to use the death to give his naivete. In appending to the home of grandfather, father, mother, I was even more loath to myself, I was only twenty years old.
standing on the brims of the window hesitated for a long time, really ambition to be as gone as Erye. But after reiterated again and again, once and for all cowardly to remain indifferent. At that time I learned that a human decides to give up their lives, need too much courage and thoroughly desperate.
Yes, I do not have enough courage not only, but also not completely despair. Finally,
Women Puma First Round, I maintain the next life, I left home when I watched that one fraught with loving eyes.
I should still belongs to me.
first thought was Pearl, call her off.
tears over and over again I shriek with namely number, merely the phone's feedback for I was helpless - entire fair a wastage.
I increasingly feel that they are themselves to blame, from the first day of entering the circle of the beginning of this dirty, I may have already condemned without hospice. Huang
do not know how I play, I just feel severe afflict among his thighs, voicelessly sitting on the bed side of a daze, while crying.
until the waiter knocked on the gate to prompt me to retard out, and I finally have the bravery to quit there.
walking down the avenue, I can not face anyone's attention. I'm afraid of jeer and satire see around, I just want to quickly disappear, disappear in the eyes of anybody. Touched, the key still.
to the Pearl family, just the house was empty.
I opened the shower, no time to undress, to wash themselves constantly. I feel every inch of his body are dirty skin, are covered with a strange man's fingerprints.
watery clothes tightly cover the body, the more I feel choked. With the bath water streaming tears on my face, but did not afford to wash my polluted!
afterward, I simply squat on the ground, left to spray water on me constantly flowing ... ...
After a child, the phone rang, turned out to be Pearl's.
elected up the call I did not mention a word on the crying and said:
may be overrunning the phone, hanging off the phone handset on a dark screen. I was like, no material if I am Pearl. I like a cell phone as over, so I had to slay Huang, to end it all.
Fortunately, soon, the Pearl on the back.
she opened the door and just come in, I hugged her crying. Pearl did not know the whole story, just gently patted my elbow and continue to comfort.
so I cry enough, I was drunk that night from Huang to now, the whole matter told Pearl.
likewise tears hearing apt Pearl said: medication apt me, I know what to do, said a Pearl then a quite frightened, and quickly taking the pill.
Wang Zhidong
playing out where I went to the bank.
put money into the card, next check the poise, it really is bad fifteen thousand or so.
to the family called and my mother's.
I probably want to say the next thing the new house home repair.
mother said, this thing can not get her attention, let me ask my major.
I asked, greatly?
mother said, pulling the bed you Lord, you are great to pack it.
I hung up the phone and further strengthened the motif of the new house repair, grandfather time is sprinting out!
then to Erniu call, she was not home,
Women Puma SF Drift Cat, the phone has no signal.
night, finally opened up the phone to Erniu, a house that the next thing.
I asked, eighty enough?
Erniu said, no one Zhunxin child, now an object up the mighty.
I told Erniu to bring money to family time, but the distress she was looked after repair.
Erniu
no respectful, no thanks to the kind of silent understanding, feeling good!
gave a tel call at home, went to excellent lengths to convince a father, do not fret about the money object, his daughter money.
Although home is not very reassuring for me, but I can feel them very happy. Perhaps, a little surprise.
Erniu said she would detect a few craftsmen, ask the repair of the house more thing. So I would have more than ten thousand dollars, you can start up.
I want a good, the recess of the more than ten thousand pieces, I propose to borrow from the Pearl, where the 1st use. Not the first time I rushed her to lend money, and each has a very timely and should be no problem.
put the songs sound just sing straight to
Pearl back.
I asked her: and Shaohua thing on Pearl slightly disappointed, and now think I'd perplexed.
had on Pearl said: children said with a smile: .
Pearl said: ! still memorize the first 3 of you live in my here? Shaohua bath on their own to find the metropolis you is not the case, I discern in you adore me then and when the shadow Lu Jun, so I differentiate you pro, I want to help you. But I am remembering this man in particular, for the people approximately them there is always a track of sadness. After listening to Pearl so that I do not say anything good, I think I have fallen. I marred in the hands of Huang!
like a long time, and finally the courage of Pearl,
Puma Suede Shoes, said: I am a little thought for a moment, his own emotions and thoughts were all home and told Pearl.
Pearl listening asked me: My grandfather seemed to day as a day of ... ... > The next day, and Pearl see Li sister and her children.
I wanted to about the go with Hung Ling and Shaohua, hesitation or forget. Wanted, Pearl has contacted them.
to the appointment place, on a hung ling.
I asked: , Hung Ling asked: Suddenly, Hung Ling
hongling a morsel shocked to say: I was surprised.
Hung Ling said: