ck Shen Ke Log ( 124-129 )

7 / 30 (2007/07/30)

I have a very long time did not dream of you.
only, every dream you once,GHD Hair NZ, awake, it can not quell want to hurt themselves.


I beverage a lot of wine.
lot of people.
friends, friends of friends, and friends of friends of friends.
me a splitting headache. Was sitting in the crowd chuckle.
ahead working family and only remember that strange male in the corridor approach the shadow of kiss.


then that night, I imagined of you.

three in the morning while you wake up.
face.
did not use component Ru solution.
rowdy towel to scrape the skin, itching.
paste into the makeup has been amplified dark circles.

depending on foot of the bed I sat on the ground.
arm bruise infection has been quickly for a week. Hidden in the sleeves a delicate shock pain.
I think of you.
clenched dagger. One, two ... ...
blood from the leg slowly overran out.
that dingy red is still glaring.
in my dizziness began apt call.

You see, I have no way to wear summer dresses.
You look, I am obtaining pile up hideous polluted.
I'm afraid I hate everyone.
I hate them afraid of them.

I obviously do not cold.
those who are in the manner of a more cold look at me.
why there locked in cages in the crowd was being made fun of hatred.
always the case.
always the case.
why do not you take me.
take me out of here.
I like you.

besides you no one will want me.
you are right, without you, how do I do.
I can only obediently in place waiting for you.
can not go anywhere.

I listen to you, good job, good life.
you said to always smile, to pay many, many friends like you.
I desperately to adjust to always the human and things nigh, I try to pay numerous, many friends,GHD Glamour Limited Edition, they laugh, nearly to amuse.
you said I also thin, every time I prop to sleep, pelvic pain will pierce you.
I quit all the things you do not like.
I eat all sorts of drugs.
I am a good fat ah.
you would like it to me.

Yesterday I took some photos sent to your e-mail.
those wounds, those blood.
I tell you I want you.
I tell you it began to hurt, but I deliberately let it began to hurt.
I dream you would like to help me dress and in the elapse, due to troubled and offended and broke things, but said nothing but hold me tight. Your warm tears leaking on my nape.
I imagine you would tell me over and over and over as you will not leave, how can you leave.


can you still go.
you said I was sick, you have no direction.
you, I do not love you.

I kid you not.
not never lie to you.
So I seriously think so many so much.
I want you to reside in variant words, if necessary love.
But why I can only have been crying.
not stop.

I have to always be careful to guard against these infinite emotions.
accentuated tensions.
alarm to listen to them crackling. Like in the division.


You see I was talking rubbish. I was drunk yesterday
why not wake up now.

Let me think about you.
Let me shed tears.
before waking up.
8 / 14 (2007/08/14)


I grew up it, mother.


suddenly so then like you.

today, a area to go alone, alone, should not be a task to complete a task.
voicelessly a little distortion.


waiting.
yesterday, still uneasy.
today is so numb.
even if we still must second, third.

pain.
did not want to cry a little.
There is nought to fear.
There's nothing I fear.
is not it? Mother.



someone erroneous, who can not escape punishment.

long, long time ago, you had to pretend inflame of infancy fun of me saying that. 8 / 22, end (2007/08/22)

lying in bed, sleep every now and then.
eyes, wake up looking at the ceiling, then fell asleep dizzy and fatigued.
and then awake again, and then fell dormant.
twenty-four hours long like twenty-four centenary.


phone ring.
big K.
coincidence it this time.
discovered me looking fhardly evermeone to speak.
even scolded 也好.
perch down in calm these days Tolerance, suddenly a little destroy.

not scolded.
would rather be scolded.
with large K becomes suddenly cordial up.
so carefully.

he said, hurt it.
I fear going to start to detect their own voice smothered.


cowardly evil do.
lonely fell, got up, calmly continued to wade.
but whether someone falls next time, aid you up gently and take pity because you to dust. Instead, it will be wronged to cry.


it is not left alone it would be better.
is not swiftly hang up the big K in the phone, help me up the people pushing it.

next time.
later, will be resolutely open.
this, and then condone this evil time.
I really need.
last. I curse by all
.



I felt sweat coated in slender blankets inside.
clenched the phone.
yet could not acquaint palms mallet to the hot temperature of the audacity or on the metal casing on the phone.
only know thatmoment, chaos, the other end of the big K's voice, seems to me the entire world.


at least, still did not lose ah.
no longer needless and useless put askew look.
constantly changing heading. and large K
just chatting lightly. That joke.
just want a little bit faster over time.

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third day.
have fever. Pain suspension.
nausea, do not dine into things.
great K the phone has repeatedly said that the nutrition of.

to buy the water and injecting glucose drip to go home.
left hand or shaking badly.
probe bar double before nail blood containers.



Internet.
seeing two hours before the last paragraph of the conversation daze.

(2007-08-14 09:39:32) ck
also met me
(2007-08-14 09:39:49) ck
you want to see me

(2007-08-14 09:42:41)
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thigh was hot the next.
bow.
inexplicable tears.
heart is hurt.

an o'clock there namely no prescience.




Valentine's Day.

8:00
is still a lot of friends.
eat, then go to bars.
He kept the wine to help me stop.
with them today, he did not slapstick, just sitting next to me, has been quietly watching me.
he tolerate unreasonable things complicated for me, go far away to purchase green tea. Just because I said that the store's green tea ice temperature was just right. But did not buy a drink.

dark deck room. He gingerly took my hand. cordless shock-like shrinkage
I open.
carnival multitude staring by the boxes.
dodge his harmed eye.



12:00

I slowly move forward.
via the crowded streets of a strange piece of a group and a group of loud and cheerful couples.
chest cilia slightly stifled.
sense of trance, going to drift like.

end of the line is the voice of his anger and hurt.

I detest you so you Shen Ke.
I like it so not value the money then you can not stand it.

from after to catch up with motorcycle parked in front.
I gazed watching has been hung up the phone, look at people on the motorcycle.
seems familiar.
a moment to remember.
really is his friend.

man talk, with a sort of self-righteous frustration.
they argue? See how you always fight. Up, I take you home.

hesitated a few seconds.
handing bags, got on.

wearing headphones the way he speak with who.
roughly surmise who.
see the car suddenly turned back.
I sat behind in quiet.

nothing.
suddenly without anyone exertion to make things difficult.

off.
he really stood waiting.
deadpan.
rigid from the hands of a friend took my sack.
I silently followed.
watched him go get car.


road.
he gently open suddenly, I'm sorry.

I rotated to see out the skylight.
silence.



am 1:20

received tiny fairy ashore the call.

my little fairy.
gentle voice still hoarse.
sweet in the middle of the night call me babe.


began to cry.
by the sobs into crying.
to cry after hours breathe.

end of the line appears to be growing panic worry sound far out of approach.
throat tight.
surprisingly tight.
stomach began cramping, and caustic cramps in waves.

tears mist, the whole is explicit and that kind of numb despair.
feel, little by little all the perception will be together with my little fairy, yet also with the lost.



think frankly the first time the word alone.
people cruel, apathetic.

alone something like this interpretation of the ah.


all obviously still there.
fairy obviously still there.

only Since that day, I was never near, as follows way, questing the cover appoint of sadness warm
8 / 31 (2007/08/31)

Luo God they come home the morning playing cards.
I will not.
still be eliminated.

Liu aunt out. At midday we started
hungry.
so I moved to cook.

not long into the kitchen.

hard to make things right for Wu Wan noodle chicken blood.
Duanliao Yi bowl to eat alone in the bedroom.
out later half an hour and base the living room that Siwan bowl is not moving.

stare.

Luo Ye tranquilize beginning the way, what it is.
frozen chicken blood noodle.
eat it.
can.
frozen chicken blood, but it called noodle.
today it is not an ordinary noodle frozen chicken blood.
what it is.
vegetables and onions have too put egg noodle chicken blood.
Well ... it before it is.
noodle chicken blood before it is frozen. No onions and vegetables and eggs.
this ... ah ... a small sink, will do anything else to eat?
understanding. Well, you and so on.
good good ... ... trouble you.


So I put the heating intact Siwan noodle perseverance.
and then bring an end to ... the past.





Later, we take the time, appear to feel very good.
Wang Yuan Zhen (2007/09/14)

not last a long time on the old MSN list.
32 messages.
of which 27 are for you.


like you said before.
I am probably missing a really deeding.
tend to forget so many major asset.



warp it.
just have no kind of yesterday received a candy-like touch of joy.

ancestral ... ...
we did not take long talked approximately.
that, I still habitually vengeance and harm.
you still habitually reiterated tolerate compromise.

your friends will presently start to hate me.
even, possibly including my friend.
our friends.

Long Zeyu ah, Li Yu ah, the age E.
they always ask me, you do enough. As good for the poor mother do.


enough.
enough is long overdue.

but I knew the habits.
forget back from. Forget to stop.
forget and you know.


I know, always know your emotions.
deep, as did the scalding slap in the face imprinted on my face.
never deliberately ignored that second day of panic in your eyes the pain and rue. I remember when I select
angry about mad.

so gentle you.
I completely trust you.
give me so many warm you.

fragmented.
day break as the set of crystal glasses.



hurt themselves if it manner hurt you.
that I will impair his side meantime laughing.

stupid?

not.
only you and I know.
I succeeded.


villain.

how can you force me to quit those.
those, so I can see her spiritual nourishment it.

you should know best, those who make you fear and hate, but all I must advocate proceeded breathing down the power ah.

You see, I say these, always with a dislike like intonation.
This is also your habits.


I do not absence to regret.
fair because you hurt me earlier.
material what your beginning point.

I just want to say, these are stopped.
by my end.


I obviously have not go back.
I visibly have in this process in itself is lost.
this be the punishment I get ah.
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from today, me from your world, dragged out of it.

ago you promised, without my permission, you can not leave me, I can not concern.
remember, right?
you have laughed like a cheat but a gentle face, made a kind of oath.



So now, I permit you to leave.
allows you to pleasure.
9 / 21 (2007/09/21)

record one.

really engaged bruised and battered. Even the current look did not have time to shoot.
This is the way to elect up the pro sat ridiculously small float a shot inside the word hi hi back.
scream to be a few more pictures to the wedding photos of friends a poor explanation.

Alternatively, you really do not want to take the greet was exceedingly dreary process.

merely penniless to participate in a marrying.
to bridesmaid status.
groom is a courtyard with six previously brought up childhood, Huo purple brother.
bride first met.
looks normal.
but her laugh and sweet. People are respectful.

lot of old people rule.
Western-style weddings have to preparing for the wedding, from the opening to the end seriously.
neither fish neither fowl.

godmother gave me goose chose pieces of yellow bridesmaid dress that really can not wear.
pretend to forget to bring, wearing a short uniforms. At least not stumbling stumbling hand.
old people no less to himself, Whatever. No one serious.
joke.
you become decency, hand, marriage foul atmosphere.
bride and groom face stiff stiff from start to finish, a thoughtless afraid of your bad ceremony rules.
than Leia. More boring ah.
Nanbu Cheng wedding night you have to stand next to the manipulation of what position they should.

just write ideas.
day has been largely silent.
not satisfactory exterior in addition to clothing, the additional should still be considered basically chaste courtesy.
starting from five o'clock to Xiangxiang the bride,New GHD Professional Black Straighteners, the groom back to the cities, to take the umbrella, to attach the bride upstairs, Libi and best man after the new bed to help with a bougie.
not Mr. Liu, to make it through.


record two.


wedding experience Yaya.
primary school students.
said that they had accurate the same level for three years.
kindergarten, premier grade, second grade.
until the third annual I transferred out.

also be brought up together.
time was bullied badly.
Yaya before a child is sturdy.
always a few girls around me with a classmate. Tore my job of this, pull my hair and the like.
I do not know to complain, just start crying, then Lianku also saved. Suffer in silence.
so kids transform more incited, having fun, bullying was worse. In the middle of the team of children
Yaya is a criterion small monster brain.

also seen for many years.
almost unrecognizable.
handsome facial functions, face petite petite, more wet girl.
manners madame to not work.
prettily Gouzhuo my arm and I talk a children how to hit my big memories.

comb a hedgehog head I wear men's jacket to her next stop, Wai Zhaozui giggle.
how to be extra tomboy tomboy.


record three.

home.
absence of sleep, coupled with approximately two days, several times not far by car.
stars.

wore a look of makeup is a shower.
COMB call me so I'll get MAYA sound goes, the way to eat a meal.
rush to arrest the last orange of the conception of time to finally encounter COMB.
thought it was an old man.
did not calculate wears black-rimmed glasses are almost like a type of young artists.
also carry a laptop with a child. Standard professional posture.

repast for two and a half hours to eat dinner, talk music, talk work, and talk his girlfriend.
took several COMB sound card and arranger for the recording software.
I really speak their own the home.
more rude.
just really weary.
otherwise want to be around and then go play video games.

home forgot to say important words.
Thank you.
make up here.

people so busy, deliberately catching the time to send his card over, also invited him to supper.
a bit sorry.


record four.

physiology of mauve in the Hall to his brother's wedding day.
Duoji Li ah.
large - red.
gang olds who know thatthe more elated ah.
began Tengteng Tengteng Tengteng stomach pain.

start recording and the bare song.
already recorded his chapter well.
my side has hauled on for a good time.
really sorry repeatedly and afresh.

tongue petrochemicals.
stomach cramps.
they ambition to record the more inaccessible state. Although the theme of erotic ######
lyrics, but whatever the result, I hope sincerely and cautiously recorded.

time.
I need time.
then a little bit of time.

forgive me, bare wife.


record five.

woke up this morn, that would be the culmination of a tolerate ache physiological state.
really can not move.
can not go to the company.
salary clasped buttoned buckle stop.
This month's drug commission and dividends early flight.

save my revolting plan.

really hate their stubborn donkey did it like backbone.
but do not regret it.
occasionally feel very sharp and hard struggle.

this month to remunerate.
otherwise I will sell self-fantasy classical Red. (He said phoned the brothel.)
Recent favorite classic melodrama into the endless crying in front of Cinderella.