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Shen. (B) (2007/02/02)

about him.

She has such a small box.
aunt said to her childhood filled with all of his pieces.
those words are very mystery memory movie, they buried her bones, as she grew up, brewing shape.
blurred by the imagination of the original picture, the more gradually remove.


his atrocities.



him time and time anew that babies hanging in the dome, severely whipped with a naval band.
only for of inferior mistakes committed by children.
hit, he was not allowed to dine.

the 1st primary school because amusement and stay late later educate.
he intimidated the children kneel at the door, are not allowed to quit the half-step.
that is in the winter, he was kneeling on his entire night. not allow children to continue the afterward day
go to school, but children with high fever for about dragging the body of a coma,
thick with barbed strap, prematurely into the child's leg in.
regardless of how the children cried, he kept coiling as possessed as pumping.
until a neighbor came to reproach Wensheng, he lived hand. Leaving the child to a adjoin hastily bandaged the bruise.

a whole winter of that year, the child's lower leg bulging and inflammation,GHD Leopard Grain Straighteners, wounds fester.
walk lame lame.
he turned a blind eye, and even intensify their abuse.


birthday eighteen children out of a automobile chance. Almost died.
hospital room.
to see him once, the language of the maximum violent intimidation of the children in bed.
and acquaint the child that he is his burden.
child in his second day off in a huff, give up all sense of survival.
secretly squeeze the infusion bottle of medicine, try to inject air into his thigh context.
was nurse to discover, the children survived.

he certainly heard about the matter.
the day in the hospital, the child of a person slowly walk home.
then encounter the child family, is still a meal whipped.


the child with his family since then no longer speak.
he was silent, began to grow with unbelievable tenacity, leaving him with both hands to make a living from the manufacture, to feed themselves.

children experience what, who knows.
national economic resumption that is new years.
child's success came speedily. Like a castle built on overnight.

when children wore in one day return to that home, then, he is emaciated, and looked dirty.
fled the camel, alive by inches Ireland.


the child, is her biological father.



she has loved her dad.
If needful to have such an adjective would.
Yes,GHD Glamour Limited Edition, love.
and solution of physical geography between her father for his silence, implied something.


pale she had seen signs of that surround, surrounded by her father in the small bone at the Tuixi.
she knew too much.
impression that her father's wrath, the cause she ought not be asked too early to ask questions.
at that time, she no longer questions. The years. About him.
just because her father did not like her so.



she was 8 years old, he had lived for some time back home.
he took her to nap.
that summer night, his fingers into her quilt, disgraceful to needle into her legs.
her eyes closed, masquerading to be asleep, feel his touch.
Sidongfeidong.
speak with dim nasty.
imagine if her father saw the shade, would look like.
and she eventually just fear and carefully to keep it a secret. Like some kind of dirty and dangerous treasure.
she be buried in it a small carton.
growth in her game.


she thought her aunt quietly.
coerced to accept that he was a fast deal marriages female.
marital the additional half of big spenders, betrayal, split, come down.
proud youth male has been trivial ground into a gorgeous dark brown.
her father's half-sister.
her aunt.

holding childhood, she had teeth, as in,GHD Carry Case & Heat Mat Straighteners, look resentment.
whisper whisper stories over and over again. Also, like himself.



she saw a photograph of his teens.
wearing a military uniform. Features handsome.
without expression is in the smile, mouth suddenly there are lines of sorrow.

she knew he had had 4 marriage.
and her father's own mother, his second wife. Birth to her father in the moment, bled to death.
have to be at that time, he emulated the die. With his wife to a strange obsession with all the feelings.

she think so.
seriously think.
Perhaps she does not detest him.
the variety of venom, but like branded in every drip of blood, genetic, innate.

in the bone. As lethal as headlong into the heart.
may be in even earlier.
When she inadvertently day in the growing morn found,
who had venom drip into every chapter of her body, with her father remaining under eighteen years of anger that forbear. Shen. (C) (2007/02/12)

ward she went outside, leaning opposition the end of the passageway on the terrace, point a cigarette.
looked down from the ninth floor engaged.
a bit cold.
her open palm and gently moved his fingers slightly Ma.

days getting dingy.
mingled with a few red and gray clouds obliterate uncoordinated.

able to get the third branch, when suddenly something began to put out fireworks,
cry to a huge roar in the sky had turned black ek a blossoming sunny colors.
She froze for a few seconds. Pinch put out the cigarette butts, back to the defense.

he had fallen asleep.

afternoon when he said, a savor of things to eat.
her to go buy a plum powder, slightly heated, inserted into the output tube in his mouth,
islet see him greedily licking his lips, sucking salty.
so he can only eat.

She stared at the sleeping he looked for a while, then got up and went and saluted the nurse duty apartment, and left.



She sat riverside, watching the water daze.
been a long time to go.
before she sat there like a half a day.

was approximately 10:00 pm.
think of morrow, but also get on early to the hospital to help him rinse replaced the before sets of pajamas, put away her smoke, is prepared to wake to go home.

a pair came from behind whispered smiling.
girl's voice is very sweet.


is namely versed sweet smell.

her perceptive back, watching the strange girl's back.
subconsciously held onto the left arm.



she has not asked YLJ sweet smell of perfume that has a name.



05 in the summer.
is the last time she saw her.



kind of taste, is still clear as yesterday.





YLJ sitting on her bed.
wearing that lilac camisole, water pen painting book leisurely doodle with.
and she sat the other side of the soft chair, casually readily cornered over the books, and occasionally look up at the YLJ one.

go? She hesitated a moment, try to ask in bed with the occasional tone of people.
Well? Ah. Do not know. YLJ also raised his head, looked at her. Was then lowered his head to draw.
he did not call? She asked.
hit. But these days it seems more busy look. That had to come pick me free.
elegance. She looked down to read.
how you? I am here to afflict you? YLJ heaved his eyebrows.
She laughed, did not speak.
YLJ Fangxia Bi, staring at her. Dead child.

silent for a while.
she suddenly whispered, others how to?
would like hymning.
your parents like him. She asked.
grace. This is major to ah. YLJ slightly sarcastically deride the sound, changed the rank lazily lying in bed, when you come back from that?
a long time. How long did you go I will transfer the.
ah,GHD Kiss Styler Straighteners, I do not know it.
You surely do not know.
definitely want me. YLJ smiling face in the pillow in hand stoop at her.

she opened his mouth, say something.
something unexpected to heave up the plot in the breast. Such as anger.


I feel sometimes can not adopt many entities.
YLJ suddenly whispered. Face to the other side, did not persist to see her.
merely funny is every time when I did consider,
certainly someone will tell me, who I think can not accept, and in truth often is correct, I really need.
after, I am sad to not do the time, they will start their own compromise.
I think, in the end I do not normally do, or they are not customary.
I may ... ...
or why only I am so sorry ... ...
then I would think that this problem may I ask you only one person, and just want to get an answer from you.

she did not speak. Head cheap down at the floor.

I'm afraid. YLJ whispered like himself. I really miss you.


but no use ah, is not it? She said. Voice trembling slightly,
we do not obtain want.


good while, they all said no.

she looked up.



is the same as before, YLJ always refused to wail when given the slightest sound.

mouth slightly higher, with an atmosphere as if approximately to smile like, tick on the left face of a narrow dimple.
massive pieces of slender and tears slowly goes over the headstrong audacity. She gazed fiercely


YLJ.
Then, indifferent, carried away to go.




last night.
they Suzhe feet sitting aboard the layer apt speak.

send you a gift.
Well?
allows us to have it together.
true?
grace. You want it?
want.
started a bit ache, you afraid of?
you give are not scared.


What is this? She looked YLJ
sack out from the bed of the needle, a catheter and a bag of pearly crystalline material things.

ice. YLJ gently said. I have been using it. I am happy.
I want us to have the same kind of feeling, think of us ... ...

her face staring YLJ goes quiet. Heart suddenly severe pain.
then nodded, and looked muscular.


probe to see the blood vessels when the cold she could not help but took a deep expiration, arched body.

That is what the strange sensibility.

abruptly injected into the body.
a moment she could not hear any sound, but like all around filled with the most intense ruckus.
blood in the body like the howl with life-like, in the deformation of her terror to listen their silence voices in the boiling.
rapidly bulging in the center, is about to break a camel incited.
every muscle seems up in the tremor.
abdominal cramping was so she could not breathe.
mind a blank.

left arm completely out of feeling gradually.
she began to spasm.


forgotten for centuries.
back have all been drenched in sweat.

She is like drifting in another distortion of the world.
with only the hidden hand dragging her in all consciousness.
her like a person who is highly exhausted, just idle, but was kept bloody hand to wake up.
hand on her body, welling up in her every cell.
made her more sleepy,GHD Hair, but more excited.

have another warmer hand gently stroking her hair.
struggling to hold her hand, and its fingers connecting.
a lukewarm fluid dew on the face.
She looked up, whispered to the hand of the main said, let me hug you.
YLJ saying anything to kneel on the floor, Louguo her pate.

weak grab YLJ her clothes around the waist and sat up, face in her soft chest, listening to the familiar sinking heart rhythm.
sense of anguish with blurred and far.

her world, all of her shadow ... ...
anything was great gloom brought about by the gentle swallow.



time.
she suddenly eager to dead for
Shen (D) - on (2007/02/24)

time
little melancholy that you want to take you to the world
no delight, no pain, no desire
absence to hug you again, and your fingers intertwined, and our heating
no sound. There is only me and you.



she always imagined she was in a morning.

big empty stadium.

YLJ sitting on the relentless staircase of the top floor, exposing a width leg gently shaking laughs and beckoned her over.
She stood below, looking up at her. A period to forget the words. Sour neb.

there is a sudden cold feet.
suddenly down, do not know when the stadium has become an ocean.
trance forget where they are in, move does not move the body.
YLJ still called her.
tone began anxiously.
Kuai Diana. Over ... ... what are you doing?

jaws she would like to reply, but incapable to pronounce any sound.
staring YLJ.
water had almost Yandao cervix.
her hard on tiptoe.

come ah. How do you? Oh ... ...

fast sound gradually became a huge murmur.
she watched in panic as the quick rise in the water around, a little bit up and drowned out their own.

sank.


wake.
mild shortness of breath.

her open eyes staring blankly at the dome for a while.
no longer sleep.
sat up, worked out a dagger from beneath the pillow.

red has faded, merciless wrapped around it on the rusty handle.
tip will no longer be keen.

her arm extended out, looked him upon those who across the hideous without forming scars.

some wounds have long healed, leaving some of the shades of roseate scars, suffused with pale without normal light.
and a few thin the blood not completely falling off the scab, a few weeks ago a new harm.

She clenched shank, slowly, the force began to draw down on bring ... to an end the wrist.
cautiously to dodge the tendons and blood vessels.


light lustrous dark steel tip cross the fashionable rind.
what, two, 3 times ... ...
divide blunt the pain of getting there.

she slowly boost the intensity of each outlet, seem to carve a picture-like focus and solemn.
onward that line has been swelling the concave paddled place, next to the meat has started slightly Suixiao reveal the quality of fiber, oozing thin bloodshot.

cordial breathing down extra gradually.
just mow the wound is still faintly twitching.


the end of her dagger back into the pillow, lying down sideways, curled himself into a warm pellet.
close your eyes.



the dagger.

she has been near at hand.
is their understanding of the second year of Christmas Eve, the first gift exchange.
the same blade, to find a blacksmith's label sculptured into 2, mantle the red line, one person one. Shen (D) - in (2007/03/01)

memories is the source of all tenderness.
prowling in the depths of the marrow.
she constantly heard them breathing.
to slow and gentle opinion, a little swallow all light.


navel school his father had been sent to a personal boarding.
six years.

YLJ read in sixth grade when she came to alteration schools. Her two-year lofty.
was her bedroom in the same array.
are quite quiet look.

their first real knowing, in that year's Christmas party organized by the school.

not only remember the happy day.
suddenly homesick.
is the third year into the school, and my father did not see her again.

when the school people are gathered in piles around the bonfire on the playground to eat, to see representations of each agenda year.
she sat alone in the edge of the crowd laugh, just pacify down a daze.
to start playing the video when the launch is extinguished, the playground becomes a dense hunk.
her four teachers have looked at and decided to go first.

she likes to go with 4, Academic Building CD melody schoolroom window on a large platform to hear to a half day.

day to go there when it base the platform has been in the.
look back a girl.
She did not say everything,GHD Dark Styler Straighteners, walked unattended the other side of the platform, looking down the playground.
the girls seem it took a while before Huiguo Shen was vigilant to the side, hastily turned and looked at her.
she Ce Toukan past. Startled by startled.
faint light music in the classroom via the platform outside, playing in their face.


YLJ hair in the air is disorderly.
hanging a few lines of his face is not no tears in the dry.

see her, as if a little correction, but to face, with a slightly surprised, furious look forto an immediate they stared at her.
you see what ah, low-grade.

she stared YLJ. Do not speak.
atmosphere a morsel mortified. They are a hard rigid
expression 大眼瞪小眼. Refused to yield.

moment.
she suddenly hum to laugh out.
YLJ smiled, wiped his face.

you doing here? YLJ side head to ask her.
do not know. You?
a human with adore to the convey of Xia Zhuan.


that they sit side by side on the platform and began to conversation.
forget what they said. In short not one then apologetic.
was not merry, seems by far away asset.

only remember that day very windy, they sit closely together shivering.
When the school alarm rang 12 o'clock, the party finished, they returned to the hostel, his face frozen red.
is smile.


schools are all closed-end treatment.
students at the school has equitable two or three hundred human.
each class size is wretched.
teaching teacher, teacher of life, a kind of teachers, add up to more than the number of students.
The students are mostly from single-parent families, or will the wealthy and mighty children of cadres.
all dull and boring.


those days.

they will be going to night classes each secretly slipped out from his class,
go lie with iron railings in front of the school opposite the house with edible noodle mart to a small dark dog funny come to play.
YLJ like the dog, always phone it ink ink.
them every time the ink from the ink outdoor the lessen railing hold in, take it to school with the conceal in a garage until the big bus is a few hours.
to learn up before the end of the back bedroom and then we prowl back to the ink ink noodle shop employer is very friendly.


every weekend, the city's school children will go home with the household too.
school only twenty or thirty on the boarders. More space and quieter.
they two are in the field. That summer vacation and even a few annuals or even the New Year is the principal home.

a nice digit of weekends, YLJ and she slept on in a small single bed.
YLJ always touching her hair alongside, legs wrapped around her legs, whisper.

they got into a fight. My grandmother today to a tel call, grandmother cried.
said he hit her mommy, her mother was not allowed to return to his grandmother.
you say, Why do adults like that ... ...
the old side of his shameless thing to do, one side then it is rational to educate their children, is more wayward bad ... ...

do you know Lian Bridge ?
Well?
later go there play with us.
What is that?
a small town distant away. Before I came here, there lived a year.
very beautiful. Well ... ... a small town, so small that only thirty-four avenue look, but are next to the beautiful mountains and lakes.
really? Good. Then we go. I've always liked, grinding
aunt took me to the side to activity ... ...
have both sides of the high cliff ... ... Here is a few practice alleys, turn onto the bridge to go slowly, there is big lawn it.
truly smart, full of soft green. There are many strange flower tree. Small lake, transparent to death.
Lian bridge large people are good busy Oh, ah ... ... busy doing affair to make money, so the town next to the beautiful places that few people go.
wow ... ...
want, right? Want to smile, I'll take you ah.
Haha so how do you like the old man.
really like you ... ...
thing.
there ... ... the lake of tears lake name.
ah, a good listen. Why?
I used to query why the aunt, what is that age fable. Later she told me the results
mountain name is Pig Hill ... I would not ask any more questions.
... ...
big muddle of people to take the name ah. Other mountain they called Pumpkin Hill melon mountain. That loveliness is gone.
ha ha ... ... a good laugh of the town.
Blessings.
that we own to the mountain Quganmingzi it.
Well ... ... What?
called ink is good ink mountain.
... ... you is not seen cats and dogs from small to large even want to call a neighbor like ink ink.
was not. The name of the multi-nice ah.
good. It is called Mexican Mexican mountains.
Well ... ... that we must go well beyond ink ink mountain.
really want to go ah? I then smiled. Mouth carpet big points.
... ...


that they go over the wall attach.
YLJ was punctured on the wall of the glass tip of the elbow.
she could not help but made a fire, and called her silly.
YLJ no way justified her inflame.

to the days when the garden union was away she ran to buy Band-Aid.
came back YLJ a person sitting there playing games, to see her back turned her head in the past. Still sulking.

scrape past her bully her, his face a good thing, I lick ...
YLJ sullenly or pretend to ignore her.
- uh babble - really ah lick you, metamorphosis, ha ha go away ... ...


YLJ birthday.
her elect out a big Snoopy fabric toys.
not in the inn meantime YLJ YLJ silently on the bed, with a tiny card that says.

you are all my joy. No one replaced.
we are forever together.

YLJ noon nap when we look toys behind to the dorm and a look of startle cards.
she happy.
even two dwelling as her classmate girl looked at her strange eyes. Have no time to think.


p.m. school recess.
her lying on the seat and see TV.
back a few boys and girls sitting together does not know what to mention.
sent waves of laughing.
boys accidentally loud up there.
ah - you are all my pleasure, no one to replace -
I love you!

her stiff stiff.

must be them.
noon they move that infant ... they read the card ... ...

do not blunder it.

She looked down silent.
to pretend not to hear.


after a few weeks.
YLJ suddenly one day asked her if she was that day's card with the other two girls bedroom peep.
her slightly surprised, how do you know?
YLJ angry, just know them. These days there are people in our class passed us two things. Nonsense. She suddenly rupture

well done. Why do they do.
YLJ must have been the class of people made fun of it ... ...

luncheon break that day the two girls back to the bedroom, she quickly went silent.
suddenly moving the one with one of girls.
the girl a contingency to react and kick the door.
loud roar up,


hand is too very cheap. Long after the quiet and effortless to do things that push me.

she achieved slowly, and turned away.
two girls did not look at that face.
YLJ sat on the bed staring at her.
long time to react, eat and giggle together.

day after she and YLJ out with the incipient bedroom, two living in dissimilar blank bedroom.
YLJ pride for several days.
Kanba ... ... or I go to wear Luo, finally coincided to the ... ...
so that instructors still must arrange a good relationship ... and life ... hehe.


and that thing, she has to mention two tacit no one had.
only while she felt. Even if confusion were the students pass, it does not matter.

long, YLJ still.


they still sleep together every night.
speak. Spooned.

you have dreams?
have ah.
What?
not tell you.
... ... I must come to know this ... ...
that your dream?
previously thought ... ... Well, so have the ability to make a lot of money to many another countries, buy a lot of beautiful dress, to pay a lot of handsome boyfriend.
anthomaniac ah you.
Haha.
... ...
hey, you said, we will not really become a homo######ual?
repose guaranteed, I have not the slightest interest to you.
dead child, I have completely no amuse to you. You Freeze ah.
Shajiao recklessly?
... ...
refers to what? Yi Long Jing sister?
Hey.
you say this ah?

range YLJ speak, her time to think, an impulse, lips and carefully mallet YLJ lips.