but how willing I was cruel to go back

dear, I really do not know how to do , and I'm so depressed , why not figure out the questions that I am going to think. Seeing of the year , and out of the children want to home , ah, I am no exception , and is the first time he left home , leaving my parents for so long , really want to come to them, but how willing I was cruel to go back, you alone A person to stay in the New Year out what , if I had not come home here , that we are separated forever , but if I do not go back, my parents will be lonely , lonely, and my good friend also I do not feel attached to them , and I too share the outside can not understand the atmosphere of Chinese New Year from the home , home ... you share the warmth is very important to me , is really very important , but in your I always will make between one sad, I will let you all how happy ah , my dear , I decided . the New Year together with you , I hope you do not let me down. , do not you ever ....... ........ write this day to tell their own words , if later regret it , that is the bitter fruit of the original own medicine to see if the original is so stupid ......... its . Mom and Dad, I'm sorry.